Step 6,736,094 (359 LBS)

I must have had my previous weight wrong. Weight Watchers had me down as losing four pounds this week, but I was only down three pounds according to my calculations. Either way, I am happy with (and befuddled by) the loss. I didn't do anything out of the ordinary in the last two weeks. Maybe, I did better than I had imagined.

Yesterday was a good day aside from the weigh-in. I walked from work to the Weight Watchers meeting for the first time since the early Fall. I didn't stay for the meeting but instead opted to walk across town the the campus gym where you can walk laps around the basketball court. Chass met me there so I wouldn't walk alone. I broke 10K steps for the first time in over a week. I also doubled my step count from the previous day. We also checked with the university pool about open hours for alumni. I think we will be going on Saturday morning to swim some laps and get some alternative exercise. I am looking to diversify my workouts to keep it interesting.

Thank you to all who have sent words of encouragement to get me through this slump.

Saturday's Steps: 5,981
Sunday's Steps: 8,392
Yesterday's Steps: 16,354

Step 6,705,367

I am in a funk. I am constantly battling cravings that cannot seem to be satisfied. I'm not sure at this point if it is physiological or psychological. It could be both. Temptation looms around every corner, and I'm being about as successful as Tiger Woods of fending it off. I am just down about everything and overwhelmed by all of the stress in my life. I have to find a better way to deal with it aside from eating.

Wednesday's Steps: 9,242
Thursday's Steps: 9,534
Yesterday's Steps: 5,888

Step 6,680,703

I have been away from the blog for a few days after being inundated with snow and taxes. Now that I have a chance to get back online, I wanted to weigh-in (pun, most certainly, intended) on the Kevin Smith vs. Southwest Airlines battle. For those that are unaware, popular Gen X director, Kevin Smith, was forced off a Southwest flight from Oakland to Burbank last Saturday. The reason stated was that Smith was spilling over into the seats on either side of him thus making the one hour flight uncomfortable for the two ladies that were bookending his seat. While the airline never told Smith that he was too fat too fly, that was the implied reason. Apparently, Southwest has the policy that people of size (I hate that term) are required to buy an extra seat so as to not impose their girth onto their fellow passengers. Smith was asked to wait for a later flight where a buffer seat would be available. Although he complied, it didn't stop Smith from launching a one-man smear campaign against Southwest via his Twitter account and its 1.6 million followers. (www.Twitter.com/thatkevinsmith)

This is always my fear of flying. I don't think the plane is going to crash, but I do worry that I will be barred from flying due to my size. Whenever I have purchased airlines tickets in the past, I was never asked to provide my weight or measurements. I have been aware of the general policy in the past for charging fliers like myself for two seats, but I have never known what the Mason Dixon line is for triggering that policy. I am in constant fear of it. I have been in a position for years that I have to assume that I am not going to fit into a seat, whether it be on an airplane, a roller coaster, or at a theater. Since there is no way to for me to find out before hand if I will fit, I often have to pass on opportunities for fear that I will spend my time and money to get into a situation just to be turned away. I don't want to order airline tickets months in advance then drive three hours, check in, check my baggage, wait for boarding, then get into the seat to have the attendants escort me away like a drunken actor when my size is discovered to be in excess of the seat.

I don't want to be the type of fat person that preaches acceptance for my condition. My condition is self-imposed, and I'm working on changing it. At the same time, it would make life easier on millions of Americans if these types of institutions would post some sort of guidelines for who will fit and who will not fit in certain seats and venues. I just think it would save everyone plenty of time and embarrassment, and it may just open the door to experiences that I have assumed I was too big for.

Thursday's Steps: 7,460
Friday's Steps: 7,651
Saturday's Steps: 10,352
Sunday's Steps: 9,175
Monday's Steps: 8,289
Yesterday's Steps: 9,820

Step 6,627,956

I'm thinking about switching my blog from Blogger to WordPress. I follow some blogs on WordPress including www.WhoAteMyBlog.com that began life as a Blogger site. It seems that the WordPress blogs are richer in their look and details. There are a couple of options that I have found I would like to have including the ability to add pages to the blog and to maximize the blog for iPhone. I am seeking opinions from Wordpress users about their experience with the site and if they transferred from Blogger.

That's all I got today.

Yesterday's Steps: 10,923

Step 6,617,033 (362 LBS)

I drank and ate too much at my Super Bowl party. I paid the price on Monday at my weigh-in. I always know what mistakes I've made. Never once have I been befuddled by a number that I got on the scale. I know what it takes to be successful. I just have to be successful.

I had an interesting conversation with August yesterday. We were driving down the road, and he was asking me about marriage. He asked if I had ever been married, and I told him that I had not been married. I told him that him mom and me were engaged to be married. He then asked if I had never been married because I was fat. I didn't know how to answer that question. I wanted to answer no, but that may not be true. He is just now getting to the age where he notices if someone is overweight. He is also pretty perceptive and able to skip past all of the BS to the literal elements of things. Maybe I have never been married because I am fat. It is certainly the reason for most of my other issues. Sometimes it takes a child's perspective to bring clarity to a situation.

Monday's Steps: 11,011
Yesterday's Steps: 10,197

Step 6,595,825

The Super Bowl has come and gone, and I'm now ready for the Spring to arrive. I am so tired of the cold weather. I want to get outside and walk around campus or the lake without freezing my rear off. I want to go for a hike. I want to go fishing. I want to take August to the park. I want to play some golf. I just want to get outside. Hopefully, I'll get my chance sooner rather than later.

I've been thinking a lot about the BodyBugg device that the contestants from Biggest Loser wear. It is supposed to measure your calorie expenditure with 90% accuracy. They units are around $250 with a monthly subscription. I would like to know if any of you have tried them and if they work. Please let me know what experience you have with the BodyBugg. I will await some feedback before making a purchase.

Thursday's Steps: 10,499
Friday's Steps: 9,346
Saturday's Steps: 9,796
Yesterday's Steps: 8,921

Step 6,557,263 (357.6 LBS)

I broke my streak this week by being up at my weigh-in. I was sloppy with my eating and lax on my exercising. I continue to struggle with the temptation to overeat. A reader suggested that I may need to try Overeater's Anonymous. That may be my next step. There isn't a local meeting close by, but OA offers online and telephone meetings. I am considering trying the online meeting. I have no problem admitting my addiction, and if OA helps, then I'll give it a shot.


Sunday's Steps: 7,406
Monday's Steps: 12,694
Tuesday's Steps: 11,375
Yesterday's Steps: 12,302